I went back and read all my old entries. I am always retarded. Is anything I’m feeling now real? or in a few months will I come back and read this and think “I was retarded.” I don’t know. All I know is that my life has changed completely for the better. I am purely happy for once. Nothing is underlyingly wrong with my relationship with Corey. Now if only this can last…. my life wont be one big fucking mess.